Well here goes……..
I’m a 34 year old married mama to William and pregnant with my second, living in the South of Devon, UK.
For sometime I have wanted to start my own blog and share my life’s journey so far.
I have been equally blessed and cursed but I only truly found my purpose after the birth of my son William. He has been my light when times have been hard and my joy for all to see.
I didn’t meet the love of my life until I was 27 years old, always jumping from one relationship to another, searching for that someone who could hold my gaze forever and in 2011 I found him. It was a rocky start as I was already involved in a 6 year relationship and I did the taboo and started seeing Robert behind my partners back. This was a dark moment in my life and I was forced to look at some parts of me that I didn’t like; However like all good love stories, Robert and I survived the dirty looks and opinions of others and started our lives together.
We welcomed happy news of my pregnancy just 4 short months after living together and 9 months later on the 21st November 2012 William was born, my blessing and we rode off into the sunset and lived happily ever after!!!!! OK lets stop a minute, I have a real marriage so we have had some dark moments!
In the January of 2014 Robert and I separated for 5 long months, money was never his strong suit and my need to feel I had to please others and look seamless took over and we broke apart. And there at one of my lowest chapters my saving grace and reason for getting up each day was my little boy.
In that period I learnt how to be a mother first and put myself second and I wouldn’t have had it any other way. For all those mothers out there who do this everyday, you know how hard this is and how lonely it can feel, until you look at your child and feel filled with more love than you ever thought possible.
Towards the June of 2014 Robert and I start to communicate more, took more time to listen before judging and slowly we saw the importance of each other, we knew we were not going to just give up, we were going to try harder and be better for us and for William.
On the 23rd November 2014 Robert proposed. It was simple and homemade, it was the evening of my 30th birthday and I was putting on my onesie with William jumping on the bed and the next minute I’m crying my eyes out looking at this beautiful ring.
On the 25th June 2016 we were married…… now fast forwarding to 2018.
After over a year of trying for our second child and fearing it would never happen I fell pregnant in the October of 2017 and we are expecting baby No.2 on the 22nd June.
Looking back over the past 7 years and the highs and lows Robert and I have faced has only made me stronger. My goal in this life is to take care of my family the best way I can and this is what this blog is all about. I want to share my failings, my achievements, my goals and what excites and inspires me through nothing other than a mothers eyes.